Crossroads

I suppose I feel the stirring of the sap, the rising of life coming back, because I am feeling decidedly restless.

For the past few years I have been on a mission to weave down my stash and mostly what I’ve done is tea towels with an occasional warp of scarves or other ‘samples’.

My fine cotton yarns are ‘best’ suited for tea towels, however, and I’ve been producing a steady stream of them.  

This morning I woke up feeling at odds with myself.  Yes, I want to, *need* to, weave down my stash, but I’m getting tired of ‘just’ tea towels, I suppose.  

The current dive into a new-to-me weave structure has been interesting, but now I’m thinking about how my other fine yarns (rayon) would work with this weave structure for scarves.  OTOH, I also have depth of stock in scarves, too.

Even at just two hours or so a day my ability to produce is out stripping my sales.  As the shelves fill with completed textiles, the yarn barely seems to go away and I feel like Sisyphus rolling that damn rock to the top of the hill only to have it roll back down again.

I could weave shawls as I’m sold out of those, but that means fringe twisting and I truly don’t want to do that.  

As I contemplate what comes ‘next’ I wonder if I keep going or if I take a break, a respite from towels and do a warp of scarves.  

My spinning wheel is set up and despite all my best intentions, I still haven’t started spinning down my fibre stash, either.  What I would rather do is build more jigsaw puzzles, but I know I need to focus my energy on doing something more productive than fiddling with bits of coloured cardboard.

Today I am going to do that other thing I’ve been ignoring – take another look at the essays that need surgery.  My alpha reader says the rest of the essays will be back from her next week, and once they are, I need to write the last one.  So that is also on my list of ‘to be done’.  

Now if I could just harness this restless energy – and chose a path – any path will do, just do it!