Warp number four in the final count down of this series.
And today I’m not feeling the love.
I do love weaving. I love being a full time creative person, setting my own goals. Deciding if today is a good day in the studio. I love the Idea of being independent, setting my own priorities.
But there are times when the every day commitment isn’t as much fun. When I grow tired of a series, such as what has happened with this one. When mentally I am done with it. When approaching deadlines begin to announce the fact that they can’t be ignored for much longer.
It is sort of like serving yourself a meal when you are really really hungry, and you soon discover your eyes were bigger than your stomach. Which is about the state I have reached…four more warps to do when I would much rather be doing something else.
At times like these, I have to reach down sometimes way down, in order to continue. I have to remind myself of the larger goals, in this case to a) use up some stash and b) have a new series ready for the all too quickly approaching fall sales season. The season where I make about one half of my income for the year. Where, if I have insufficient inventory, I might not make enough money to cover the show costs, never mind enough to get me through the following lean income months.
Time to take a deep breath. And continue. And remember that this, too, is part of the job. Even when I’m not exactly feeling the love.